It's not about me, it's gotta be about You
All I wanna see is who You're turning me into
I will not forget that You said You'd always lead me through
To who I wanna be, making every part of me about You

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- All About You

by David Dodd

Chrissy Conway thought she had it all planned out - a sexy solo career as the next Britney Spears.  The offer was on the table: a multi-record contract with a lot of money.  All she had to do was sign the contract.  But God had a different plan…  

     “Growing up, I always believed in God, I just didn’t understand who Jesus was.  I always looked at Him as being the guy on the cross.  I didn’t know much more than that. 

     When I was 18, a friend of mine invited me to this thing called the Harvest Crusade and I had no idea what that was.  I asked him, ‘Do they pick corn?’ and he was like, ‘No, no, no, it’s a Christian concert event.’  Well right away I shut that idea down because I didn’t do that kind of stuff. 

He told me that En Vogue was going to be there and at the time, they were this huge R&B

group that I loved, so I thought, a free concert, En Vogue, I’ll deal with it.  So I went.   

God knew what it took to get me there.   

      It turned out that En Vogue never sang.  One of the girls was there representing the group; I thought they were going to sing.  It was during the crusade that for the first time in my life I heard somebody reading from the Bible and explaining the real story of Jesus, and what He did for me.  I never heard it in those words before.

 I don’t know how to explain this feeling of wanting to turn my life over to Christ at that moment, but I knew that it was something I needed to do.  I realized then that I was never going to be good enough.  I remember the speaker, Greg Laurie, saying, ‘You might be here tonight and think you’re a good person,’ and it was as if he was talking to me.  He said, ‘But, I’ve got news for you, you will never be good enough to have the religious truth of God on your own, it is only through

Jesus Christ.’   

I knew right then and there what I had to do. 

At the time I thought I had everything figured out for my career.  I was in a group with someone you’ve probably heard of – Pink.   There were three girls in our group and we were signed to a record label.  Things were going well for us.  We got to work with Babyface and Boyz to Men, it was really an amazing experience that lasted while I was in high school.  I really learned a lot but it was the wrong situation for me. 

God knew that.  I didn’t know that; I thought it was awesome at the time.  After I became a Christian, I had a tough year because I didn’t have any other Christians in my life.  I had moved to Atlanta to record an album and was just around a lot of bad influences.  I tried to find a church but I just didn’t know what I was doing, I didn’t know where to look, I didn’t know who to call which really shows how important follow-up is with people to make sure they get plugged in somewhere. 

That group broke up and I was really mad at God for awhile.  I swore that I would never be in another group again.  I blamed God for taking that opportunity away from me.  I thought my life was over.   

Since I had such a bad experience with the group, I focused on doing a solo thing.  That was right when Britney Spears was coming out.  I recorded a demo of my own songs and sent it out to New York.  I bought sexy clothes and worked on my image.  I was days away from actually signing a record deal with a major label. 

Now during this time - right after the group broke up through the time when I recorded the songs for a solo record deal -  I had found a home church.  The more I pursued this solo record deal, the more I felt like God was just saying no. And you know, I kept pursuing this solo deal and He just kept saying, I don’t think this is good.  That was the first time I had ever really felt He was pulling me away from something.  I got conviction.  Finally I was to the point where I was supposed to sign the deal and I just couldn’t do it, so I prayed.  I said, Ok God, if this is not what you want from me, if you want me to go back to school and be a teacher, whatever you want me to do, I want to do what you want me to do, not what I want to do.  That was the first time I gave up my own will and my own desires to God and let Him take the reigns.  I said, just give me a sign.  I want to do what you want.  Just show me what you want me to do.

I think it was because I was such a young Christian and He was trying to prove Himself to me of how real and how powerful prayer is.  It was this time where if I ever needed proof on how prayer works, this was the moment. 

The very next day - after I had asked for that moment - I got the phone call to be in ZOEgirl.  The call came from a girl I’d never met before.  She had waited two or three days after she got my phone number from this guy that we had each met one time ever in our lives.  It was a total random connection.  It was God’s perfect timing and it was my complete answer to prayer.  I stopped everything I was doing and moved to Nashville.

Before that, the fame and the success and the money were what it was all about for me.  

Everything turned in that one moment.

It went from being about me to being about God.